Update-1.21.08

I'm in London right now and am having laptop/Internet issues, so I thought I'd write the postings now, and put them online upon my return to the States. I don't have a ton of new updates to report, but I have heard from Casey more than once. Yes, more than once - and I arrived here Friday morning and it's now Monday.

There was a message from him when I landed at Gatwick and turned on my BlackBerry. It was nice and thoughtful and made me smile, but I was a bit uneasy that he had already written to me. I feel like a terrible person even having that feeling, and it makes me feel even worse to actually admit it! But I'm just being honest.

I ran around London all weekend with my good friend (great times!) and planned to write him back on Sunday evening after I'd checked into my hotel. But by the time I finally got here, after a ridiculous adventure on the Tube and in a taxi (and some serious debauchery the night before), I was so exhausted that I just crawled into bed.

I woke up this morning, all set to email Casey back, so I logged into my BlackBerry and downloaded my messages. And there it was - the SECOND message from him. Like the other one, this message was also funny and sweet - but really? Another email?

I feel like a colossal b*tch for thinking that, but I can't help it. In my previous relationship, I spent two years wanting my ex to show an interest in what I did when we weren't together and to be supportive of my work and personal interests. I never got what I wanted (hence, the end of the relationship). Fast forward to today, and here I have a guy giving me exactly what I needed for so long and I'm put off and freaked out by it. But I think I'm put off by it because it's SO much SO quickly. On Wednesday, we'll have known each other for TWO WEEKS. I have a feeling the "We need to take things slowly" talk is just around the corner. I just don't want to scare him off entirely.

Back to Casey and the emails...I typed a pretty lengthy reply back to him (or at least it felt lengthy because I was typing it on my BlackBerry). I told him about the fun I had here over the weekend and all the sites I saw. I haven't heard back yet - but I find that I keep checking my Inbox for his reply. I guess that's a good sign and it means I'm interested on some level - I just need to not feel pressured.